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Books I mentioned:
Unbroken by Laura Hillenbrand
Unwind by Neal Schusterman (Warning: Disturbing Concepts)
Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys
Witch of Blackbird Pond by Elizabeth George Speare
To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee
Daddy-Long-Legs by Jean Webster
Bruiser by Neal Schusterman (Warning: Disturbing Imagery)
A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks (Warning: Language)
Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater
The Last Sin Eater by Francine Rivers
Skies of Dripping Gold by Hannah Heath (Warning: Language)
It’s time to get painfully honest.
I do not want to publish this post or make its video. I have the suffocating feeling they won’t make any difference, and I’ll look like a fool because of it. I’m ashamed to say that, that fear has paralyzed me nearly freakin’ all year. I let my guilt pull me into apathy and my apathy into inaction, and I’m so frustrated with myself because I still truly believe that the construction of Girl’s Shine Academy in Malawi, Africa is an amazing thing.
It’s amazing because the education provided by this high school will help change lives. The girls who attend will learn how to make better decisions for themselves and will gain opportunities to rise out of extreme poverty. Their future children will have a greater chance of surviving past infancy. After they graduate, the students will have to option to go to college and study to become teachers, nurses, and business women. They could then use their knowledge and expertise to help their entire village.
Another major reason it’s so wonderful is that these Malawian girls will simply be learning. We first-world citizens take for granted the access to information we have. Yet, I know I would sorely miss—or worse, wouldn’t even know what I was missing—if I never had the chance to learn how the world works.
Right now, time is of the essence. The school is aiming to open by September 5th, and the final phase of funding still needs to be completed. Every dollar towards the project and every word to spread awareness is incredibly important.
I really, really wish I hadn’t given into fear and had shared about the Academy earlier in its building process. And I’m embarrassed that I’m only getting around to writing this post and video script now. I posted about the school on Facebook back in March, but I also felt called to write this and make it into a video... And I didn’t. But I don’t want my embarrassment or fear to stop me from doing what I know is right. And at this moment, for me, that is making the video. I’ve given monetarily; now it’s time to give again with my words, my time, and my heart.
To anyone who is still reading this, thank you. If you feel moved to donate, here is the link to the fundraising website: villagefridays.com/education. If donating’s not the right thing for you in this moment, there’s no shame in that. Instead, please consider sharing this post or the video, or just simply talking about the school with someone. Every action matters, no matter how small.
Again, thank you for taking the time to read this. I’ll write to you again soon, and stay bubbly.
You may be wondering why I’m writing a full length post on this blog today instead of the usual lone video. Well, to put it simply, I am tired. I am too tired to set up a camera, doll myself up for filming, and then edit the video.
I’m exhausted for a lot of reasons. All really good ones. I’ve been traveling, moving into a new trailer, meeting online friends, getting ready for that thing called college. And with the fall semester right around the corner, I’m only going to have less energy to put into my channel.
So this is the part where I tell you I’m taking a break from Youtube, right?
Well, actually, that is wrong. I did consider taking an indefinite hiatus. But there’s one problem with that idea. I don’t want to stop! I still really want to share my thoughts with you! I just need to figure out a less time and energy consuming way to do it.
The vlog style videos are more involved than most people probably realize. They take way more energy than I have to spare right now. And to be honest, I don’t particularly enjoy being in front of a camera. It's not because I’m unhappy with how I look. I like mah face! It’s that I’m when talking to a camera, I have to improvise my words a lot, and that’s something I detest doing. I like to think through every word I record, so I say everything I want to say exactly how I want to say it. Of course, there are the options of memorizing a script or getting a teleprompter, but those require more energy or money than I have right now.
So here’s my plan at the moment. It’s liable to change, but at least it’s something:
I’ll be posting my thoughts in written form here on this blog. But! No fear! I will not abandon Out of the Bubble on Youtube. I kinda love reading stuff aloud, especially my own writing. So I’ll upload recordings of me reading the blog posts. The video at the end of this post is a prime example of what I plan on making.
So if you don’t like blogs (then I don't really know why you're reading this), just stay subscribed and you can listen can to my soothing voice without a single squint of your pretty lil' eyes.
If you do like blogs, you've come to the right place. Be sure to check back every once and awhile if you don't want to miss a post.
That is all for now, my friend!
I’ll write to you soon, and stay bubbly.
I failed in every aspect of the creation of this video, and that makes it a win.
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